lc23tina's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Sleep to dream � 2 a.m. 2:10 a.m. to be exact. Wide awake. I don't like sleep anymore. If I didn't need it I wouldn't do it. In addition to strange dreams, 2 night ago I had a dream that John died. I don't know how he died, but I do remember asking this lady if I could keep his health card so I could have a picture of him. I sat in a corner crying and saying "what am I going to do without him". I woke up crying. I freaked out because he was at work and it didn't register. I bolted out of bed in a panic and realized that he'd still be at work. Try going back to bed after a nightmare like that. Last night I slept off and on. Scared that if I slept for one second I would miss something important. I think I should look into getting some sleeping pills. I'm going to wait until my eyes can barely stay open before attempting to go to bed tonight. I think I need a night with John. He's been working so much we haven't had a chance to have a night to ourselves in a long time. I bet I'm just missing him too much. 2:10 a.m. - 07.06.03 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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